I woke up this morning at 5:11 staring into the still dark room. The brooding hour — the time when yesterday’s worries complete their night time trajectory and land en-pointe in my wakening consciousness. Anything from upcoming meetings to fury at the President will arrive, not in any order or priority, but each taking their place to jump and gesture though the day. This morning a newcomer appeared with the others.

What was the killer’s family thinking now, I wondered? His sister, a Princeton graduate? His mother, apparently never fluent in English, likely not a part of close community? Was it possible to imagine their hell?

This appeared in the Washington Post today.

The family of Virginia Tech gunman Seung-Hui Cho told The Associated Press on Friday that they feel “hopeless, helpless and lost,” and “never could have envisioned that he was capable of so much violence.”

“He has made the world weep. We are living a nightmare,” said a statement issued by Cho’s sister, Sun-Kyung Cho, on the family’s behalf. …

“Our family is so very sorry for my brother’s unspeakable actions. It is a terrible tragedy for all of us,” said Sun-Kyung Cho, a 2004 Princeton University graduate who works as a contractor for a State Department office that oversees American aid for Iraq.

“We pray for their families and loved ones who are experiencing so much excruciating grief. And we pray for those who were injured and for those whose lives are changed forever because of what they witnessed and experienced,” she said. “Each of these people had so much love, talent and gifts to offer, and their lives were cut short by a horrible and senseless act.”

The Chos’ whereabouts are unclear. But Virginia State Police said they are under law enforcement protection.

Family is Lost